Losing My Love
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by Tanya Writer
She laid back saying the feeling was good. She got all tingly and she liked it. But she didn't get any fireworks. I told her that I didn't get it the first time either that it took several months of doing before I had my first one.
"How long have you been doing this?"
I said blushing, "Almost a year."
"And you didn't tell me? Why didn't you? " Jenny sounded upset. "Sandy, I thought we were best friends, I tell you everything."
"Oh Jenny, I promise I won't keep secrets from you anymore. Do you want with go me to the library tomorrow?"
"Why?" Jenny wondered.
"I'll show you some books I found."
"You didn't tell me about other stuff too?" she asked.
"Sorry, but I will show you everything, I promise," I assured her.
I told her to take off her nightgown. She asked why and I told her it would be fun to sleep naked together and that sometimes I did that. It is kinda fun thing, and a bit naughty thing to do after I touch myself. So she pulled gown over her head and left her panties off. It was nice to get a look at her naked. She was flat on top like me. Her areolas were the size of nickels which about the size mine were, but hers were a lighter pink in color then mine. Maybe that was because she's blonde and I have dark brown hair.
In the morning we rode our bikes to the library. I took her into the back stacks and showed her the books. We took a couple of them to a table and looked at them. But while we looked at some drawings of girls we got a little loud and the librarian shushed us. Then Jenny did what I never had the courage to do. She got out her library card and checked out the books.
We rode back to my house and went to my room. We laid on my bed reading the books. One books showed all the parts of girls and boys. We looked at the parts of the boys. We agreed that boys looked funny and not very interesting. I guess the only thing that boys could do that we couldn't was to pee standing up. Not much of an achievement, we thought, giggling.
When we looked at the parts of a girl, we couldn't see as well as we wanted. I offered to take my panties and let Jenny have a close up look. I laid back on the bed and spread my legs and held the book up on my tummy so Jenny could see the book and look at my parts. She reached out and gently opened my lips and looked inside. I had to bite my lower lip because her fingers on me there felt so good. She found all the places labeled in the book.
Then it was my turn, Jenny took her panties off, laid back and held up the book for me. This was so cool, I thought as I opened her lips and looked into her hairless little pussy. It felt so good to touch her like that my hands were shaking. Her legs were kinda skinny, but they felt nice and soft. I was glad to see the parts but I think I liked touching her more to open her up than comparing her to the book. Nonetheless, I made a point of calling out the name of something and then touching it on Jenny. I touched the upper parts of her thighs which I enjoyed, and I could tell she liked it too. But since we were supposed to be looking at the parts of a girl in the book, I couldn't do it very long.
We read the books about things they called masturbation, about how girls could do it, and how boys did it. Also they told us about sex. It sounded disgusting to me and Jenny thought so too. I never wanted a boy shoving his thing up inside me. I showed Jenny how I would get on my pillow and rub against it and she wanted to do it too. I took my pillow but I was being funny and threw my big teddy bear at her to use. She decided it would be funny to rub against her. My teddy bear's name was Terri, or you could say she was a Terri bear, so I was rubbing my pillow and she was doing it with Terri.
That night I told my mom that we wanted to take our showers early and go to bed. She just lifted her eyebrow in that way when she is wondering something. We went in the bathroom together because I wanted to show her how to use the shower massager. I stripped and then I began to give myself that special massage. It was hard to do that with the shower door open so Jenny could see and not get water all over the floor. It felt good, but I didn't have the fireworks. I let Jenny have a turn. I watched her and helped her to do it the best way that worked for me. She said it was good, but she was disappointed there was no fireworks for her either.
We just wrapped towels around us and ran to my room. We brushed out our hair. Jenny's is longer. Hers goes down almost her butt. My only goes down just past my shoulders. While we were doing that, mom knocked on the door and asked if we wanted some pink lemonade and we said yes. When she brought it back we were still naked and she asked if we going to be naked all night. We were giggling and I said yes. She laughed and said that we should not go out of my room, because my dad's blood pressure couldn't take two girls running around naked. We finished our drink after mom said good night and then just to be naughty we ran naked to the bathroom to pee before getting into bed. We thought it was naughty to watch the pee coming out between our naked pussy lips, which only served to start the tingles early for us both.
I locked my door and turned out the light and turned on my old nightlight. We talked about what it felt like in the shower and what different ways I had figured out. We also looked at the book for more ways to do it. We decided that we would do it at the same time. We laid down next to each other and began by wetting our rights hands with our spit. Then we started by going up and down on our labia. It was fun to watch her do that and I thought it was wicked that she was watching me doing it at the same time. I could feel that I was getting wetter down there more than just from my spit. It made things slippery. I could feel that my lips had gotten fatter, and I could see Jenny's. They had gotten bigger and were kind of red like mine. I switched to rubbing on my button, going in circles over it. It was feeling real good. After a bit I forgot about Jenny. I was kinda in my own little world the only thing that I felt was my pussy against my hand and my button against my finger.
There was that buzzing in my ears, and my head was starting to spin. I knew that it wouldn't be long before I got the fireworks the feeling that is best in the world. They couldn't get here soon enough, I thought. They didn't disappoint me, they came and blew the top of my head off. This was a good one! I was moving all over my body shaking around and my head going back and forth. None of this I knew, I only knew it because Jenny told me.
When I came back to myself, Jenny was still doing it because she hadn't got her good feeling yet. She did it a little longer. Then she quit. She said that she got a nice tingly feeling in her tummy and her pussy, but she hadn't had the same kind of reactions that I had. I told her it would come. It had taken me some time before I got them, even now I didn't always get them.
But she liked it enough that she would do it at home. She shared a room with her little sister, and when Barbie was a sleep she would do it. She said she had to be quiet when she did it to make sure she didn't wake her sister.
We decided that it would be better at my house. Although we went to different schools because was a grade behind me, we would both hurry home to my house. My mom would let us go into my room. She didn't bother us while we were in there, if we didn't stay too long, so we would have to be fast. As soon as we got in we would take off our clothes and lay down on my bed, side by side and do it.
One nice thing about being in sixth grade that was different from last year: we took showers after physical ed class. I got to see the other girls naked. Even though I didn't have anything on my top, I still got a secret naughty and hot feeling knowing the other girls could see me that way. And I really liked to see them naked too. It made me want to see a girl close up naked. I told Jenny once when we were naked that I wanted to look at her again. She laid back and spread her legs for me. I got to look at her close up, and I touched her exploring her parts. She liked that, she said. I was hoping that she would want to see me like that and touch me too, but she didn't do it.
We laid down together and we masturbated. When we finished, I had an orgasm, but she hadn't but she said she liked doing it better with me there. She leaned over and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I turned to her and asked if she wanted to try kissing. She agreed, and we spent the next 15 minutes learning how to kiss. We had seen it done on TV, and we had kissed our parents and stuff, but this was different, it was grown up kisses. Neither of us were very good at it but it felt so good to do it. Just kissing her gave me the start of the tingly feelings. We talked and she said she was getting them too when we kissed.
So the next time we got together, we decided that to make it more exciting we would kiss while we masturbated. We had to find a way to lay so that we could kiss while we could still rub our pussies without a problem of getting to them. That worked out great! I got hotter, faster and she said she did too. We tried it that way for a few more times.
I still was curious about naked girls. I could see them at school and I saw Jenny all the time naked. But I had the desire to touch one. We went into my room and we got naked and began to kiss while we touched ourselves. I stopped her and asked if she would like it if I did it for her. I told her that I would like it if she would touch me too. It was just as special as I thought it would be! It felt heavenly, not only the way she touched me but because I got to touch her as well. It didn't take very long for her to bring me to an orgasm. It was an even higher one then I usually had. Maybe it was because it was Jenny who brought me off. The other thing was I loved touching her. She was so sexy. Even if was at school I got hot just thinking about being with her. I would get damp spots in my panties.
I had told Jenny about one of the girls I knew on the cheerleading squad, and that I thought that she was cute. Also when they did their cheers sometimes you could see up their skirts. We went to watch her at some of the games.
It was already December and we had been doing this since the beginning of the school year. We were suppose to have a computer for school work, and for Christmas my parents got me a little laptop. Jenny would come over and we would look around the internet. Dad didn't put the usual parental controls on it. So we could go where ever we wanted.
One thing we looked up masturbation, now we could see it at home we wouldn't have to check out books from the library. I had hear about girls who did stuff with other girls, they were called lesbians. Well that was me and Jenny. So we looked it up. OMG there were stories about them, and all kinds of information. There were even videos of girls together. They had different ways of rubbing each other. But also they were licking each other. We were floored by this. We had never thought of that.
Being that we had a couple of days left before Christmas vacation was over, Jenny slept over. We were going to try licking as our main technique.
I did it first. I liked getting down and touching her between her legs. It was even better to touch her with my tongue. I didn't know if I would like the taste but found that I loved it. I was licking and Jenny was enjoying it. She grabbed my head and was holding it between her legs. She tried to wrap her legs around my body, trapping my body against hers.
Meanwhile I was exploring licking and sucking on her pussy. I would stick my tongue into her especially the entrance to her vagina. I tried to see if I could get my tongue into her pussy but I could up only so far and I reached something and she made a squeaking noise and jumped back a bit. I must have hit her hymen, which we had read about in the books. I moved up on her and began to lick her clit. But after a bit I changed to sucking on it with enthusiasm. I was able to get it in my mouth as it was standing like it was waving to me.
Then it happened, she had her first fireworks. She was moaning she was even calling out my name. When I could feel that she had come down from her climax. I got out from between her legs and laid beside her.
She said panting between words, "Wow that is fantastic! No wonder you like doing that! It was great!"
She kissed me, and then she licked her lips. She asked, "Is that me, that I can taste on you?"
"Yes, I think so," I agreed, licking my lips as well.
"Then I taste good. Will you taste as good?"
"I don't know but I would love to find out! So do you want to kiss my other lips for me?" I slid my legs apart as I lay back flat on the bed.
"Yeah let me get down there," Jenny exclaimed as she moved into position.
She moved down between my legs, and that was the start of my trip to heaven.
She kissed my thighs all over. I told her, "Use your tongue, lick my legs." It felt so good. The warm and wet with the roughness of her tongue was doing it for me. She licked up and down my lips as I reached down and held open the lips to allow her go in. The point of her tongue was tentative at first, but it felt great because it was light, like hit and run touches, that only made me want more.
"You taste yummy, girl," Jenny said softly.
I pushed my pussy back into her mouth, which explained why she wrapped her legs around me earlier. She didn't want me to get away. But I hadn't any plans of going away and now I hoped she wasn't planning of going away from there, ever.
I pulled her head up and she got the idea and began to lick my clit. I held her head in my hands and moved it back and forth side to side so she was rubbing and licking my clit like that. Then I would change and had her move her head up and down along my pussy slit. She wiggled her tongue against my clit trying to get up inside the hood. That was enough to get me off. I had the best fireworks ever! I had to push her away after a bit because I had become so sensitive.
We found that we needed to go back to about two times a week being together when school restarted. We would talk about girls in the neighborhood who we thought that were cute. We told what we would like to do with them. There wasn't any jealousy between us if we played around with another girl But we never did it because we didn't know any girls who were like us, and liked other girls.
It was on Valentine's Day I got Jenny a little gift to go with a card. It was only a little charm bracelet, but she loved it. I told her that I loved her. She kissed me and told me she loved me too. She got me a set of hair clips and barrettes as well as ties for making ponytails. She also got me the cutest card, with lots of little hearts and she even got some lipstick and kissed it so it had the imprint of her lips.
Through the spring we would meet in my room after school on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Mom would know that she would be coming. She would have milk and cookies or some other snack ready for us when we got there. We would go to my room and lock the door and get naked. We would be eating each other. We would also watch some lesbian videos on the internet. It would give us ideas about what we could do together.
We would kiss on the lips but I began to touch her areolas she didn't have very much and I would kiss them to make things sexier. I licked them with the flat of my tongue on her chest then I would wiggle my tongue on her little nipples. I was a bit surprised her areolas got a bit smaller and the nipples began to rise up off her chest. Her face flushed and I think once she got an orgasm just from what I was doing to her chest.
I had her do the same things to me. If she felt half of what I felt when she did it to me, then it must have been great. I could feel that there seemed to be a direct connection, between my boobies and cunt. It seemed like she would suck on my nipples and it was like an electric wire down to my pussy. It would get all hot like it was an electric filament from a light bulb that glowed white hot.
Once I could feel like there was something leaking out my cunny. I knew that I would have to have her mouth down there soon and she didn't disappoint me. I was going out of my mind with her tongue all over my lower, sensitive lips. Then she started to suck the juices out my hole. She was trying to get a better gasp on my hips, (what there were of them), her fingers grabbed my butt cheeks. One finger got right next to my butt-hole. I let out an ahh noise. Jenny realized where she was touching. She said. "Sorry," and moved away.
I told her "Put your finger back there that was great." She was fingering my butt-hole I was wondering what it would be like if she put her finger inside it. That is when I could even think with what she was doing to me. It was driving me out of my head. Then it did happen and the top of my head blew off again. But that was what we were wanting to do, we wanted to blow our minds.
By the beginning of May, I was starting to get my boobies. They were just my areolas that were sticking out. I wasn't ready for a bra but mom went out and some training bras. I was so proud of them. Jenny saw them and now she was jealous. Jenny had me go next door so Mrs. Murphy could see and had me show her showed her my training bra. Jenny told her that she wanted on too, but her mom said she didn't need one and to prove it she had Jenny lift up her shirt. Jenny was still flat. She got embarrassed because just then Barbie walked in and wanted to know why Jenny was showing off her boobies.
My school was going to have tryouts for cheerleader we decided that we would try out for it. I would be in 7th grade next year and she would be in 6th. The 5th graders this year could try out for next year. I didn't know about it before I started school this year.
When we would go to the games it was more to watch Sarah, the cheerleader. After the games we would talk with her and walk with her into the gym. We would talk to her, while she got undressed because we liked to watch her in the shower when she got naked. We would get that itchy feeling between our legs.
We wanted to be on the squad so we could have a practical reason to be naked with Sarah. Jenny and I practiced the routines they showed us that we should know and be able to do. But we got sweaty and have to have showers afterward. So we would take them together, which made for more interesting times in the shower.
We would get in the shower together. First was a shower to get the sweat off us, then came the good stuff. With the water just right, I would have her stand with her legs bent at the knees and bowed out. I had her use both hands to open her lips and I would direct the spray at different parts; sometimes her vagina other times her clit. I got be good at using the shower head in that I would change the stream. Sometimes it would be a hard concentrated small stream, then I would change it to a pulsing and would cover a bit bigger area. I used a finger my other hand I would put it right at the entrance to her pussy or sometimes up on her clit and rub either place. She wasn't getting the orgasm that I was, but she got a good enough feeling that she would about be falling down.